Come what may & love it.

Elder Joseph B. Wirthlin gave an amazing talk about these words. They were words his mom would speak to him after things didn't quite go the way he'd expect them too. Those simple but powerful words helped him take the bad, with the good.

This semester, I feel like I am definitely learning what it means to take what life throws at you and loving it. I started this semester very different than my previous semester. I'm not going to get into detail, but I will say that I wasn't happy with the way things had gone down before heading back to school and I wasn't ready to go back to Idaho just yet.

But I did leave. And it was mostly because I needed a place to runaway from everything that wasn't going the way I wanted it to. However, problems don't go away by just running away from them. That just doesn't happen. No matter how much I wished it could.

I learned a very important lesson that first week I was back in Rexburg:

GOD TAKES CARE OF IT. Especially after we do our part and put our trust in him.

Things are still not perfect. But I've learned to be okay with that. There's this quote from Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants that has always stuck with me, "Being happy isn't having everything in your life be perfect. Maybe it's about stringing together all the little things."

The 21st.

It's been a while. 

Months, actually.

I went to Dallas for three weeks in December. It was great to be home. And it was great to have received closure for everything I had left behind. 

I'm back in Rexburg.

I'm back to adulthood. 

I'm glad to be back.

I really, really am. 

Things don't seem as crazy as they did before.

I'm happy. 

And my emotions aren't off the roof.

They're okay.They're calming.

And that's all I ever wished for. 

No craziness, no rollercoaster emotions.

I'm learning to control them. All of them,

Worry, stress, attachment. I'm working on them. 

& I think I'm doing okay.

Algun Dia.

One day I'll learn to love silence.

One day being in an empty room won't be so terrifying.

One day this'll all turn around.

One day there won't be disappointment & love will grow.

One day things will be sincere & pure.

There won't be bitterness.

Just a lovely essence.

One day.

 



Press forward.

Its crazy to think that just a couple of nights ago I was in this state of complete uncertainty.

I spent a night thinking of how I was falling apart & that there was nothing I could do about it.

I was torn and that was that.

Sigh.

In just one perfect night of sincere prayer, I became patient.

I'm so happy.

I have left the past behind.

& I'm gazing upward, looking inward, reaching outward, and pressing forward. 

"When we have the Lord on our side, everything is easier." -Brother Philmore